the meaning of a long run now

having a long run these days has couple more meaning now.
since i am not doing as good as i expected in squash.
dropping off in the trailwalker couple days ago.
well, the only thing left open for me in this moment is the coming marathon.

if i don't do this right, what else i could do right in these coming period?
i've already given up the bloody exam.
looks more like i've given up everything already.
shit shit shit...

trying to get a running club chop from a friend of mine today in order to allow me entering couple of sport grounds during some reserved session.
but the reply is like u need to do a year training with the club in order to be a member of that club.
pardon me? what's that suppose to mean?
is this mean without a year training with you guys would be a shame for your club to sign me in?
it may not be the message sending but i definitely got that one crystal clear.
mate, you better watch out.
cause you just give me thousands of reason to deny you.
and i guess this may be the "fire" i don't have while playing squash.

Thank You and Goodbye Grandmom....

My Sub-3 Diary - 1

having run so many marathons in the past but sadly none i could be really proud of.
i am not sure will there be one in the coming future but i guess i got to try until the day i there is no hope at all.
i can be very honest now that i still in love with it and i wanted to make something out of it.

i'll try to focus my next marathon challenge on 5Feb2012 be my closest target.

understand that i already 6 weeks behind my schedule but i just wanted to make use this diary to record what i've been doing and keeps me as motivated.

wish me luck.