Lonely, Sorry, Guilty

When we were not on the same page, I felt lonely.
When I looked at myself, I felt sorry.
When I have to sneak around. I felt guilty.

Tribute to my favorite band

Brain Damage (Waters) 3:50

The lunatic is on the grass.
The lunatic is on the grass.
Remembering games and daisy chains and laughs.
Got to keep the loonies on the path.

The lunatic is in the hall.
The lunatics are in my hall.
The paper holds their folded faces to the floor
And every day the paper boy brings more.

And if the dam breaks open many years too soon
And if there is no room upon the hill
And if your head explodes with dark forebodings too
I'll see you on the dark side of the moon.

The lunatic is in my head.
The lunatic is in my head
You raise the blade, you make the change
You re-arrange me 'til I'm sane.
You lock the door And throw away the key
There's someone in my head but it's not me.

And if the cloud bursts, thunder in your ear
You shout and no one seems to hear.
And if the band you're in starts playing different tunes
I'll see you on the dark side of the moon.

Eclipse (Waters) 2:04

All that you touch

All that you see

All that you taste

All you feel.

All that you love

All that you hate

All you distrust

All you save.

All that you give

All that you deal

All that you buy, beg, borrow or steal.

All you create

All you destroy

All that you do

All that you say.

All that you eat

And everyone you meet

All that you slight

And everyone you fight.

All that is now

All that is gone

All that's to come and everything under the sun is in tune but the sun is eclipsed by the moon.

Where is my arm lost arm?

Couple years ago I was stung by the news that a hiker who trapped his arm underneath a giant rock. He wasn’t hurt in a sense that could possible kill him immediately. However, he couldn’t get away from the trap either. Knowing he could starve to death if he didn’t make his way out on time, since it is quite a remote area and it could take days or weeks in order for someone to find him trapped.

What would you do?

His choice is to deliberately break his trapped arm with a not very sharp army knife and make his way back in order to save himself.

This is a story keeps on my mind days in and out. Afterward, seeing him attend the night show with the confidence where we could hardly find in most people. Eventually, he becomes celebrity, not even keeps on climbing but also writing books, doing commercial and so on. I wonder if he could predict all these back there.

It could be a hard decision to make but keeps on wondering why get trapped in the first place could do not much help at the moment and obviously wouldn’t lead to any future at all.

He wouldn’t think much about why over and over again. That was then and this is now.

What a past could possibly offer is just a lesson; the future still need you to shape.

It is not wise at all to think about my lost arm; like where it is, how it is.

Everyday is a brand new day.

There are times that I wish the next day will never come.
There are times that I wish the night wouldn’t be that long.
There are times I feel so reluctant to plan for another day.
There are times I feel so excited about the next day.
(even though it is getting rare this day)

In the end, it is just a single day out of our limited days in life.
Why don’t I treasure it like there won’t be another?
Each day is a pave for tomorrow.
Be positive. Plan it well and live it well.

Why I keep running???

There are countless times I wanted to stop in the middle of the road when the stress and plain are so huge to deal with and of course I still give in from time to time.
There are countless times I doubt myself why I am doing this and of course I still in doubt from time to time.
There are countless times I think it is stupid enough to do it any more and of course we all agree it is not the coolest thing in town.

I believe it is the simplicity attracts me.

It is like the kind of extended challenge where we have everyday.
Although I might not know how the next ride would be but the best part is I do know exactly where will be the finish line.

I do hope that more and more could find their ways to break away from this cold reality.
And find their strength required for another day.

What would you do then?

It's all over now.

i thought it would be the hardest day ever but like i said before i am just a human. i still get tired, i still get hungry; it just a day with 24 hours like any other.

it may not sound as normal as it should but in the end it just a day with lot of memories and lot of regrets, that's all.

recently, it;s been too much backward looking already. it is about time to move ahead.

nothing stays forever. thing just slip off from your fingers without any pre-warning.

get yourself in the driving seat for a better tomorrow my friend.