i thought i would be at least a happy day, but right from the start i just don't feel any happy at all.
at noon, i wonder why would i be here.
in the evening, i wonder how come i wasted so many years.
this is how i felt about my last day at work.
in fact, i am pertty good at turning something really ugly into something motivated.
but on the other hand, i am very bad at keeping things off my head.
