22 January 2007

Leave it & let it go.

i am only human, i could make mistakes and i will probably make some more mistakes in the future.
realizing my mistakes is the first thing to stop the same mistake from happening again.

human do change from time to time.
i said several things, make several promises under several situation.
understanding this is the way it is and start ending the pointless struggle.

don't make it harder than it should.

10 ways to lead a better life

10. be good to yourself since good times in life is so few these days
9. everyday makes it the best day you could possible be since it could be your last
8. keep your pace or people just pass you right away; forget about someone will stop by and say “how do you do?”, wake up to the reality and get yourself together or you will straight to bottom
7. make yourself heard, make it the best out of you and show them they were wrong, generosity takes a very small part in history
6. laying back is either for millionaire or loser, since you are not the first type, don’t group yourself to the latter one
5. you are not in the jazz business, nothing will be rewarded out of ad hoc. Plan it or lose it.
4. stack up your barging power or you will be cooked someday sooner or later
3. be focused and never lose sight of the big picture
2. keep watching the current situation and deal with it before it becomes fatal
1. it is your life not others

20 January 2007

what i am doing here?

Self help exercise

Take a pen and a paper, drop down the following:
10 reasons why are you doing here
10 reasons why shouldn’t’ be any more
10 things/person you wanted to spend time with
10 reasons why you didn’t
10 reasons why you would still around tomorrow

…no reason to drop anymore.

15 January 2007

@#$%&*!...

lift it up!
hold it up!
keep it up!

oh! fuck it up!

12 January 2007

it hurts...

ah! it hurts so much. no idea it would hurt so much.

everthing seems pointless around here.

i wish i could but in the end appearantly, i couldn't lift myself from this "psychological sea sick" - everything from what i observe contradicted to what i believe.

i think i have to adimt is that i am just a human being and a vulnerable one i guess.