today should be the happiest day...

i thought i would be at least a happy day, but right from the start i just don't feel any happy at all.

at noon, i wonder why would i be here.

in the evening, i wonder how come i wasted so many years.

this is how i felt about my last day at work.

in fact, i am pertty good at turning something really ugly into something motivated.

but on the other hand, i am very bad at keeping things off my head.

dream machine? no way

if superman li could wake up everyday at 05:55 for his goft pressure, i could do better than that.

if superman li could has $XXXXXX asset, i could "not" do better than that "now". :(

forget about the bull, recently just can't stand the lazy me at all. trying to get up earlier and have some exercise before an official start of the day. trying so hard to find something which i lost during all these years - me.

changing habit is not a easy task, i think i need a helping hand - a newly bought "dream machine". that is something you saw in the picture. well, it did a pretty good job on the very first day. probably the excitment makes me wake rather than the sound it makes; it felt all the way right in the very next day. :( probably it needs some more time.

by the way, if something wake you up in the middle of the dream and call themselves "dream machine", there got to be something wrong in this world, isn't it?

what kind of partner do you got?

ask yourself when you told your partner that you are going to spend almost all your saving for just a toy, what would be his/her reaction?

i) didn't show any emotion on that, probably not interested of what you said or didn't know how to react. p.s. ask yourself is it that all or something underneath? (confused)

ii) black face, showing huge dislike about your decision, probably comparing his/her own status toward your toy or even judging your decision and his/her decision about being with you. (understandable)

iii) neutal, sound like it is your matter and actually it is but why bother telling in the first place? (rational enough)

iv) supporting, even contribute a part to it. (dream on pal)

any other type of reaction missing??? ha ha ha...

Converse All-Stars???

i remeber there was a time Converse launch a commercial showing various artist's All-Stars. they are including eddie vedder and so on.

this is no All-Stars and i ain't any musician but just loving the idea anyway. :)

do i have any problem???

probably i was way too poor back then.

or i just don't have any pocket money to handle back then (as they said, they best period to learn handling money is during childhood)

or i just have no control at all.

recently, reading others' blog, seeing so many great pictures make me realize i wasn't taking much pictures.

it is a record of thing which matters to me.
it is no way to be a master piece anyway.

when i gone, they will all gone too.

i guess it is part of me.

for better or worse, this is me.