Mitsuko Souma

crappy movie but big theory...

2011-12-21T23:07:00.000+08:00

over the year i've been questioning myself.
in fact "i just try to move on..."
those little mind behind each movie is the reason why we were there.
p.s. sorry mate, i can't tell u which one is it.

Normal Pronation, Overpronation & Underpronation

2011-12-04T22:29:00.000+08:00

the meaning of a long run now

2011-11-24T00:25:00.000+08:00

having a long run these days has couple more meaning now.
since i am not doing as good as i expected in squash.
dropping off in the trailwalker couple days ago.
well, the only thing left open for me in this moment is the coming marathon.

if i don't do this right, what else i could do right in these coming period?
i've already given up the bloody exam.
looks more like i've given up everything already.
shit shit shit...

trying to get a running club chop from a friend of mine today in order to allow me entering couple of sport grounds during some reserved session.
but the reply is like u need to do a year training with the club in order to be a member of that club.
pardon me? what's that suppose to mean?
is this mean without a year training with you guys would be a shame for your club to sign me in?
it may not be the message sending but i definitely got that one crystal clear.
mate, you better watch out.
cause you just give me thousands of reason to deny you.
and i guess this may be the "fire" i don't have while playing squash.

Thank You and Goodbye Grandmom....

2011-11-15T20:07:00.000+08:00

My Sub-3 Diary - 1

2011-11-13T21:52:00.000+08:00

having run so many marathons in the past but sadly none i could be really proud of.
i am not sure will there be one in the coming future but i guess i got to try until the day i there is no hope at all.
i can be very honest now that i still in love with it and i wanted to make something out of it.

i'll try to focus my next marathon challenge on 5Feb2012 be my closest target.

understand that i already 6 weeks behind my schedule but i just wanted to make use this diary to record what i've been doing and keeps me as motivated.

wish me luck.

CIAO "SUPER SIC"

2011-10-23T22:52:00.000+08:00

i can't stant it without one...

2011-10-07T23:18:00.003+08:00

funny things about life

2011-09-08T00:50:00.001+08:00

there were times we hate the lost
but without the lost, you won't tell how to win.

there were times we hate the pain
but without the pain, you won't tell how good it is just to be alright.

there were times we were down
but without these downs in life, you won't even be motivated at all.

in the end, i suppose these negativity elements are indepensible in life,
all you have to do is deal with it and move on
or you will be standing where you are and watching other passes you one by one.

definition of aging

2011-08-14T22:39:00.001+08:00

it was the beginning of a whole new record.
well, things all you wanted but you just get a feeling that you couldn't.
it just suck and i guess it is what aging is all about.

belly training

2011-07-24T21:43:00.000+08:00

let me eat, eat ah eat...

2011-06-15T22:46:00.001+08:00

those were my surfing shoes.

this is my surfing shoes.
死味...

ah MA! we got it la....

2011-06-15T22:30:00.000+08:00

the waiting is over.
go go go....
and make yourself heard.

bye bye Romeo....

2011-06-15T22:14:00.000+08:00

rest in peace la.
daddy will visit you more often than you could imagine.
don't look back la.

weiiiii.....

Business as usual...

2011-05-21T17:05:00.001+08:00

ha ha ha....

i just had a great time...

2011-05-15T21:49:00.001+08:00

what's on my mind is will i be able to play again in coming weekend.

when will i know how to manage a harness instead

when can i handle the board just like them...

so many effort needed from me now on

and so many how and when

monohull vs multihull

2011-04-10T19:23:00.003+08:00

before it was the Dart which keeps me going...
now its colour is fading and replacing by a kid on the block.

it is like life somehow, when you look at thing in a distance, you always visionize every good things about it. but when you finally have it. sorry mate, it tells a very different story.

delay onset aging (muscle) sorness

2011-03-01T07:54:00.000+08:00

man... i never thought it would be so hurt.
damn!

燕崗? where is that? not even Google Map helps

2011-02-07T22:51:00.000+08:00

thanks to a friend of mine who allow me to experience as a farmer 1st hand.
it is harder than you thought and yet simplier than you think.
i believe i will back for more cause i just love the way it is - simplicity.
let's lock the complicated world outside.
life shouldn't be this way.

read a blog from someone else and which enlighten me somehow.
"I want to thanks all the people who have stayed close to me and also those who have been against me because they have helped me to grow."
we all have limitations of our own and yet what important the most is we are not giving up the chance to be a better us yet.

i found my peace finally...

2011-02-04T01:09:00.002+08:00

nobody likes it, that's why i am buying it...

2009-11-20T22:54:00.004+08:00

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9. congratulations

2009-10-29T00:24:00.005+08:00

i just had a great day - thanks Laser 2000 & my partner

2009-10-11T23:02:00.002+08:00

just wanna make myself remember that i had a great day on Laser 2000 today.
the most wonderful experience i ever had (so far).
thanks pals.

keep sailing!

rossi the donkey?

2009-09-07T22:53:00.002+08:00

the more i read, the more i like this man....

2009-08-26T22:11:00.002+08:00

I am Valentino Rossi. And I want to be a person, not an icon.

I was born on 16 February 1979. My father is Graziano Rossi, professional racer, both motorcycles and cars. My mother is Stefania Palma, surveyor with the town of Tavullia.

...wait a minute? a surveyor? ha ha ha...

Kids Return

2009-08-23T00:55:00.003+08:00

Kids Return is the best so far.

Shinji: Masaru?
Masaru: Hello. Still at it?
Shinji: No, I quit.
Masaru: Oh, I see.
Shinji: And you?
Masaru: I’m doing nothing.
Shinji: Are you going anywhere?
Masaru: Yes, job hunting.
Shinji: I’ll give you a ride.
Masaru: No, thanks.
Shinji: We use to ride to school together remember?
.....
......
Masaru: Nothing's changed.
Shinji: Yes.
Masaru: Do you think they still have morons like us around?
Shinji: Maybe we were the last of them.
- Hey, you idiots! Studying hard?
Masaru: Cut it out, Shinji.
Shinji: Masaru, do you think we're finished?
Masaru: No way! We haven't even started.

beyond the comfort zone

2009-08-07T16:16:00.000+08:00

it was like a snap in the face while the 1st time meet.

no, i am not even close to anything called "comfortable".

but i am not stretching myself either.

it is about time to move on.

sorry man, you just make me strong... ha ha ha...

2009-07-24T20:16:00.000+08:00

thanks, starbrother again.

what? you must be kidding me....

2009-07-07T10:23:00.002+08:00

what? :O

it is how i reacted while looking.

special thanks to "starbrother".

what would you do?

2009-06-27T22:36:00.002+08:00

when the night fall,
but you just don't have the mood to finish the things which been there for decade,
and you can't sleep either,
suddenly memory of the pass just flowing over out of nowhere,
you found you missed whole lot of things,
you missed "the moment" of your life,
every god damn moment just passed right in front of you while you were busy for something completely irrelevant.
and now you know,
what would you do?

i would rather buy drunk and that's all i could do.

how could someone told me never seens these?

2009-06-04T23:24:00.001+08:00

what he is a left footed? ops...

how could this one be missed out...

2009-05-31T01:17:00.000+08:00

long live the king.

ronaldo?

2009-05-31T00:39:00.002+08:00

these days when you say ronaldo, people will ask "you mean C Ron, are you?"

come on kid, out of the way....

messi, thanks for everything....

2009-05-28T14:30:00.001+08:00

soccer will never be the same again.

TIPS:
Technical
Intelligence
Personality
Speed

just loving it.

2009-05-28T14:22:00.001+08:00

you are my man, marco

2009-03-13T19:18:00.005+08:00

against all odds.

although things are not on your side but i like your move.

you are my man, marco.

you just mark an interesting season out of nothing that is what i called a warrior.

there are always someone get a better deal...

2009-02-28T12:05:00.005+08:00

look john, what should i say?

nice huh marco? new toy. are you sure it wasn't as shaky as before?

from Anakin to Darth

2009-02-25T22:41:00.002+08:00

how come everytime who rub salt into the wound is someone closest?

fucking man, i just can't get through it.

fuck everything.....

there you go - Rossi (and me of course) ha ha ha...

2009-02-17T12:47:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday!!!

nothing is free...

2009-02-14T21:43:00.005+08:00

john, you look shock.
and so do we.

what happen to you Marco?
did you learn the news or you just pretending...

what a 2009.

what's next?

2009-02-12T12:29:00.004+08:00

last year after the race
i said to myself "i want to have fun in the coming year"
e.g. running in funny wardrobe like those "sharks" around

coming to this year, i have no wardrobe in hand
and i guess i have too much fun already this year
but the thing is it wasn't during the race

this year i say i wanted to have a decent race next year
and see how i might doing next year

afterall the clock is ticking and my time are wasting...

respect it the way like no other does these day

hong kong style milk tea

2009-02-04T17:48:00.003+08:00

what if someone told me HK milk tea is as hazard as cigarette.

i'll be toasted.

cultural shock? well, not at all...

2009-01-24T22:25:00.004+08:00

24Jan09 what a strange day of my life.

it wasn't planned to be one of the date of my life actually, especially when you learnt that everybody else is having a day off for their coming lunar new year and together with those 36 wasted years in the pack.

it is not a secret no more that i envy somebody else's got (i would never said "achievement", as i would never considered it matches. sorry pal)

well, under the condition of being new to this environment, seems i have no choice but to give in to this so called "lunar new year dinner".

i am no stranger to this "bottom up" culture of showing respect to anyone you considered important to your "career" life. well, when it comes to reality, it is something else.

i always consider myself to be one of the best adopter in any situation. i really mean "any". (although it is always left unproven or even short in result, but none of it shaking my confidence).

it is no secret that my normal evening meal contains a beer or something. how nice is that when it is free at the same time which serve the same purpose.

i been told that they loved to make ppl losing themselves, unfold their real characters and eventually make them more closer to each other. the strange thing is it just happen to be i am well trained over this year (somehow).

it is a night with not much high hopes but to fulfil the "requirement" which i might be expected to be.

and it turn out to be one of the interesting night i ever have in my wasted 36 years.

man, i guess i have lot more to ex pore in this country than i expected to be.

it seems i get it somehow why they drunk themselves as i do. probably, we all been to somewhere and something which is really hard to...

p.s. i just have a little fireworks for this lunar new year eve which i would never expected and to be honest i am loving it. thanks pal. it echos more than a planned one. it is gonna be one of the memorable moment i would remember while i have to leave this life. it is the 1st time i really felt happy for a lunar new year to come and i am looking forward to it.

i am trying to get a clearer picture at the beginning in the moving vehicle. however, 2nd thought, it reflects more like how i felt at the moment, just leave it that way then.

wish you all have a happy lunar new year.

oh! i got it....

2008-12-27T16:48:00.003+08:00

Aisin-Gioro Pu Yi

2008-12-16T09:38:00.002+08:00

a life who could have anything in this world.

ironically who had nothing at all.

that's life, isn't it?

credit to John Lone's brilliant performance.

254 vs 279

2008-11-27T10:43:00.004+08:00

does these numbers means anything to u?>

those were the days....

Coe first ran against Ovett in a schools cross country race in 1972. Neither won, nor did they win in their first major encounter in the European Championships Prague in 1978 in an 800 metre race, where Ovett was second and Coe finished third behind the East German Olaf Beyer. The next year on two occasions in Oslo, Norway, Coe set his first world records in the 800-metre (1:42.33) and mile (3:48.95) races. Later that year, he set the world 1500 metre record (3:32.03) in Zurich, Switzerland.

The most famous races between Ovett and Coe were in the 1980 Olympic Games in Moscow, where each won the other's speciality, Ovett the 800 metres, and Coe the 1500 metres (Coe came in second in the 800, while Ovett took third in the 1500). It was Ovett's first defeat at either one mile or 1500 metres in three years and 45 races. The image of Coe crossing the finish line arms outstretched, eyes rolling and mouth agape was much reproduced.

Naoko Takahashi

2008-11-25T13:26:00.002+08:00

On the afternoon of Oct. 28, Sydney Olympic marathon gold medalist and former world record holder Takahashi gave a press conference at Tokyo's Grand Prince Hotel to announce her retirement. A portion of Takahashi's statement follows.

"Hello, I am Naoko Takahashi. I planned to run the Tokyo, Nagoya and Osaka International Women's Marathons but have to give it up. To the fans, staff and sponsors who supported me I offer my sincerest apologies. I had this goal to run these three races as a thank you or goodbye to everyone but now I find that I've spent everything my body has, that I've done all I can and am left with just a peaceful feeling. It's not that something happened, I just can't do the kind of training I need in order to stand in front of you all as the Pro Naoko Takahashi, the kind of running I can be proud of, anymore. I don't want to just show up and run badly anymore either. The years when I won the Olympics and set the world record were like a typhoon, and now the typhoon has passed and there is just a gentle breeze blowing. I love running and will keep going into my 50's and 60's, but from now on it'll be as the 'Jogger' Naoko Takahashi."

Asked whether leaving her coach Yoshio Koide at her peak had been a mistake, Takahashi replied, "It wasn't that big a deal. I thought about retiring when I left him, but I would have retired earlier if I hadn't left."

bella

2008-11-22T16:57:00.003+08:00

“I used to worry. Then I did a little research and found out that ten out of ten people die.” - Nina to Jose, as they ride the train to the New Jersey seashore.

Brilliant Andy....

2008-11-15T15:50:00.002+08:00

Oh! I could tell why you are playing so well in Madrid. :D

ONCE

2008-09-08T00:03:00.002+08:00

Fallying Slowly

If You Want Me

mind your words dude

2008-09-06T14:15:00.008+08:00

“I’ve got to feel good. He’s got about 16 injuries right now.” : Roddick

oh! man, see what you have done.

“That’s not nice, anyhow, to say in front of this crowd that I have 16 injuries and that I’m faking,” : Djokovic

http://tennisworld.typepad.com/thewrap/2008/09/noles-best-impe.html

是否我真的改變了？

2008-09-05T14:35:00.003+08:00

記得於中學時學過國語，但每次上課都只是唱唱 “龍的傳人” ，及後的考試也只是再唱一遍罷。相信本人的國語功夫有多少大家也可略知一二。
而本人一向也對中國文化不什興趣，加上種種因中文而帶來的詛咒，促使本人對“中” 的一切有很大抗拒及憤怒。
但於工作後眼見本土的工作潛力遠不及中國大陸，而國語又是為一通行全國的語言，使本人又不得再次學上國語來。
雖然這次和上次的動機完全不一，但相似的是於這些年頭，真的沒有半點兒多的喜歡上我們的祖國。就且不論將來有否機會於祖國工作，但可悲的是當人們從iPod 中選擇喜歡的音樂時，我卻在選擇適當的會話遍。

後記：是次文章足足用上三十分鐘才完成。那麽一年的工作可用上我三年以上的精力？實在不敢再想下去‧‧‧

my $25 meal again

2008-08-28T17:39:00.002+08:00

it's a bit strange while having this HK$25 meal and watching "CEO EXCHANGE".
mummm.... interesting.

no point to make it anymore harder...

2008-07-31T11:11:00.002+08:00

once things get set, will try to file an application.

i know what i have said before.

time has passed and things has changed i guess.

this is it.

2008-07-25T10:57:00.001+08:00

these three little magic words explain everything.

how could anyone don't love this guy????

2008-07-18T13:07:00.009+08:00

just loving it!!!

Discovery Bay

2008-07-03T13:18:00.001+08:00

It’s been couple of years since the last time I been there. I remember clearly the reason why I was there and how close I will be living there, how close I was in so many other things as well.

Unfinished mall, beach and etc of yesterday are now filled with familiar shops and people and many more. Scenes of yesterday DB and me compare to the current DB and me, both are very different from one another.

I have a huge Hard Disc for everything, sometimes too large for my capacity actually.

Let’s move on, we live for the future and not in the past, are we?

i'm just loving it

2008-07-02T12:46:00.003+08:00

just had a ride on one of these.

well, all i could tell is "i'm just loving it".

it helps me to forget everything on land.

it reminds me that 70% of our planet is covered by ocean, why not make the most out of it?

love vs like

2008-06-25T23:44:00.004+08:00

i love this "shit"... (even if it is killing me)
i love this lady...(even if she demands the unreasonable)
i love this man...(even if he doesn't love me back)
i love this machine...(even if it is so hard to ride)
i love this job...(even if it doesn't pay much)

i like this thing...(only if it performs well)
i like this lady...(only if she behaves)
i like this man...(only if he treats me right)
i like this machine...(only if it does well)
i like this job...(only if it pays well)

does it take so much to LOVE....? or
you rather choose LIKE....? or
you never really LOVE at all....?

what? consistency?

2008-06-19T12:24:00.003+08:00

i have a whole new understanding of the word of "consistency" while i am getting more bald each day.

it is a word sounds too dull for young guns.
it is a word equivalent to boring, sometimes even means useless.
it is a word would never cross their mind.
it is like telling them you could be bald someday and their reply probably like "what? i don't think so and i could do better than that."

now i realize it is a word requires genuine effort.
it is a word represents a true devotion.
it is a word requires love in it.
it is a word which takes success to a whole new horizon.
one have said "getting there is the easiest part, but staying there is not"

i think i realize who i am...

2008-06-17T12:50:00.003+08:00

recently reading a blog from a friend of mine, finding beautiful pictures over and over during her trip. they are all great and it just like taking me to the scene with just few clicks away. bravo! thanks pal. but if you ask me to do the same during a trip. no way, i would never spoil a trip by standing in the spot waiting for the right kind of light, waiting the crowd to spread, mounting tripod, changing lens and many more... i guess my toys will never get a chance to show what they are capable of. sorry toys.

while i am getting older and older involuntarily, i begin to realize there are many ways to lead a life. i used to follow my parents ways of doing things, then i follow my brothers way of thinking, and i am afraid i begin to have my own way now. they are all very different from each other. wishing that i am not doing it just for the sake of escaping from the previous one. in fact, i do believe there are beauties inside every one of them, it just a matter of which one suit you the most.

during a trip, i enjoy the company whom you travel with rather than the scene. during a meal, i enjoy the company whom you eat with rather than the meal itself. after all i enjoy the attachment to make me feel alive and not the little thing which would makes me isolated from the rest of the world.

how often do you find the right person?

2008-06-07T16:21:00.002+08:00

there is a line like "i am so lonely and you are so..."

i wonder how many would admit they are lonely in this never sleep city.

因誤會而結合，因了解而分開。

2008-06-04T17:30:00.002+08:00

recently i just can't get my mind from....
"what if" is a dangerous phase and not to mention a dangerous thought too.

ask yourself how many times, you catch by this misunderstanding?
ask yourself will you still be the same after discovering?
what are we chasing for during our life time?

isn't it better to leave things unknown?
everything seems lot more nicer and better.

disappointment is something i don't have much capacity to bear anymore.

what a nice way start a week...

2008-05-23T16:31:00.005+08:00

thanks to guys who invented these kind of things,
thanks to guys who brought me to these things,
thanks to guys who hang around with me for these things,
thanks everybody,
and i am loving it. :D

Goodbye Justine

2008-05-16T15:36:00.001+08:00

Tall, blond, long legs are always eyes catching. She has none of these but I like her very much. And she is quiet too.

It is the kind of determination storm the world. It is the kind of drive take her to the top. It is just fascinating to watch.

Wish her every success in what she is heading for…. And we’ll miss u.

my lovely little plant

2008-05-14T22:12:00.001+08:00

here comes my new plant. :D

don't know why just love it the way it is. strange....

new toy in town

2008-05-03T22:43:00.004+08:00

there are times i don't like person in the picture.
there are times i think record shots like "i've been there" are cheap.

but i being to realize it is the "person" around us makes our life matter.
it is the person around makes me realize i've been lived.

just wish that i could make a better use of this one than any pervious one.

did you ever slow down?

2008-04-30T22:30:00.006+08:00

i tried and so do you

miss it?

2008-04-30T22:21:00.003+08:00

Far away, so close...

got to be "used to be so closed, but now so far away".

Undeniable Talent

2008-04-26T11:56:00.007+08:00

Three pole position in three circuits, 3 podium finish (2nd, 3rd and 1st), setting fastest track record with the age of 20 - the youngest rider and as a rookie in 2008 Premier Class. Already put Rossi’s record in shadow.

But my heart stay with “the doctor.”

Pick of 2008:
The civil war between two Spanish riders
How "the doctor" regain his long lost title
How Ducati regain its lead as in 2007

what if...

2008-03-13T22:06:00.001+08:00

What if you got only 6 months to live?

What would you do in the first place?

Would you still stand things that you used to?

Would you still stand persons that you used to?

Would you ever be honest to yourself for once?

Would you still hunger to improve?

I have no answer to that, do you?

Recently there are couples of thought that I’m just human, I might not be able to be the person I wanted to be.

But in the end, it is more like a question of “you can’t or you won’t?”

i am just a human

2008-01-19T08:53:00.000+08:00

When I was a child (although I still want to be one) I used to think that I could change anything if I wanted to be
I mean anything

But when the time passes by and I am losing hair as well as memory (particular those short term)
I begin to realize I am just a human being
Every deficiency a normal human being should have and I am no exception either

is it a good sign that I should stretch no more?
Or I just give myself an excuse for everything?

But most important of all is, I am no more interested to find out and I ain’t big fans of a super me no more

my blueberry nights

2008-01-08T18:31:00.000+08:00

“the longest way to cross the street”

would it be differently if you would knew before or it would be the same anyway

if there is anything you could learn before; life probably would be too dull to live for another day

sometimes too much attention are placed in the future and forgetting the fact that we are living in present

the future seems not matter since there is not much you could plan
what really matter is now

what? what did you do to me?

2007-12-09T21:28:00.000+08:00

recently, i adopt a pretty strange habit (where i have no choice, actually) which i do this "thing" basically for no real destination or heading no where at all.

it completely violates my way of living for so many years.

but the strange things is i begin to discover the another side of me.

i have no idea it would only be a transictional thing or really something lives inside me while i was born. i guess, i still have time to find out.

have to say i am not liking it at the beginning and now it unfolds something where i didn't know before.

may be i have changed along the way.....

today should be the happiest day...

2007-11-22T22:22:00.000+08:00

i thought i would be at least a happy day, but right from the start i just don't feel any happy at all.

at noon, i wonder why would i be here.

in the evening, i wonder how come i wasted so many years.

this is how i felt about my last day at work.

in fact, i am pertty good at turning something really ugly into something motivated.

but on the other hand, i am very bad at keeping things off my head.

dream machine? no way

2007-11-16T21:45:00.001+08:00

if superman li could wake up everyday at 05:55 for his goft pressure, i could do better than that.

if superman li could has $XXXXXX asset, i could "not" do better than that "now". :(

forget about the bull, recently just can't stand the lazy me at all. trying to get up earlier and have some exercise before an official start of the day. trying so hard to find something which i lost during all these years - me.

changing habit is not a easy task, i think i need a helping hand - a newly bought "dream machine". that is something you saw in the picture. well, it did a pretty good job on the very first day. probably the excitment makes me wake rather than the sound it makes; it felt all the way right in the very next day. :( probably it needs some more time.

by the way, if something wake you up in the middle of the dream and call themselves "dream machine", there got to be something wrong in this world, isn't it?

what kind of partner do you got?

2007-11-15T07:33:00.000+08:00

ask yourself when you told your partner that you are going to spend almost all your saving for just a toy, what would be his/her reaction?

i) didn't show any emotion on that, probably not interested of what you said or didn't know how to react. p.s. ask yourself is it that all or something underneath? (confused)

ii) black face, showing huge dislike about your decision, probably comparing his/her own status toward your toy or even judging your decision and his/her decision about being with you. (understandable)

iii) neutal, sound like it is your matter and actually it is but why bother telling in the first place? (rational enough)

iv) supporting, even contribute a part to it. (dream on pal)

any other type of reaction missing??? ha ha ha...

Converse All-Stars???

2007-11-13T21:22:00.000+08:00

i remeber there was a time Converse launch a commercial showing various artist's All-Stars. they are including eddie vedder and so on.

this is no All-Stars and i ain't any musician but just loving the idea anyway. :)

do i have any problem???

2007-11-09T22:24:00.000+08:00

probably i was way too poor back then.

or i just don't have any pocket money to handle back then (as they said, they best period to learn handling money is during childhood)

or i just have no control at all.

recently, reading others' blog, seeing so many great pictures make me realize i wasn't taking much pictures.

it is a record of thing which matters to me.
it is no way to be a master piece anyway.

when i gone, they will all gone too.

i guess it is part of me.

for better or worse, this is me.

what does it matter???

2007-07-09T22:41:00.000+08:00

it is never the price tag matter. it is all about the heart and effort behind it. thanks pal.
but just wish that it wouldn't need it at the first place. man, it's heavy. :O

COLLATERAL

2007-05-01T01:33:00.000+08:00

Stuart Beattie
Frank Darabont
Michael Mann

Vincent:
To tell the truth, whenever I’m here, I can’t wait to leave. Too sprawled-out. Disconnected. You know…? But that’s me.

You like it here?

Max:
It’s home.

Vincent:
17 million people. This was a country, it would be the fifth biggest economy in the world. But nobody knows each other. Too impersonal. But that’s just me… you know…

I read about this guy. Gets on the MTA, here, and dies. Six hours he’s riding the subway before anybody notices. This corpse doing laps around LA, people on and off, sitting next to him, nobody notices.

Max:
I see your point. Yeah….

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Max:
Last thing I need is a reason to keep driving a cab. It’s temporary. I’m fillin’ in, you know, while this other thing I’m putting together is shaping up….

Vincent:
How long you been driving?

Max:
Twelve years.
Hardly temporary….

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Vincent:
Look in the mirror.
…with your paper towels…a bottle of 409…a limo company someday. How much you got saved?

Max:
None of your business.

Vincent:
Your business “plan?” someday? “someday my dream’ll come…”?

And one night you’ll wake up and discover it all flipped on you. Suddenly you’re old. And it didn’t happen. And it never will. ‘Cause you were never going to do it, anyway. The dream on the horizon become yesterday and got lost. Then you’ll bullshit yourself, it could never have been, anyway. And you’ll recede it into memory….and zone out in a Barcalounger with daytime TV on for the rest of your life….

Don’t talk to me about killing. You’re do-in’ yourself. In this yellow-and-orange prison. Bit by bit. Every day.

All it ever took was a down payment on a Lincoln Town Car. What the hell are you still doing in a cab?

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Vincent:
YOU CAN’T WIN, MAX! I DO THIS FOR A LIVING!

Guy. Gets on a subway. Dies. Think anybody’ll notice?

Lonely, Sorry, Guilty

2007-02-20T16:25:00.000+08:00

When we were not on the same page, I felt lonely.
When I looked at myself, I felt sorry.
When I have to sneak around. I felt guilty.

Tribute to my favorite band

Brain Damage (Waters) 3:50

The lunatic is on the grass.
The lunatic is on the grass.
Remembering games and daisy chains and laughs.
Got to keep the loonies on the path.

The lunatic is in the hall.
The lunatics are in my hall.
The paper holds their folded faces to the floor
And every day the paper boy brings more.

And if the dam breaks open many years too soon
And if there is no room upon the hill
And if your head explodes with dark forebodings too
I'll see you on the dark side of the moon.

The lunatic is in my head.
The lunatic is in my head
You raise the blade, you make the change
You re-arrange me 'til I'm sane.
You lock the door And throw away the key
There's someone in my head but it's not me.

And if the cloud bursts, thunder in your ear
You shout and no one seems to hear.
And if the band you're in starts playing different tunes
I'll see you on the dark side of the moon.

Eclipse (Waters) 2:04

All that you touch

All that you see

All that you taste

All you feel.

All that you love

All that you hate

All you distrust

All you save.

All that you give

All that you deal

All that you buy, beg, borrow or steal.

All you create

All you destroy

All that you do

All that you say.

All that you eat

And everyone you meet

All that you slight

And everyone you fight.

All that is now

All that is gone

All that's to come and everything under the sun is in tune but the sun is eclipsed by the moon.

Where is my arm lost arm?

2007-02-16T00:11:00.000+08:00

Couple years ago I was stung by the news that a hiker who trapped his arm underneath a giant rock. He wasn’t hurt in a sense that could possible kill him immediately. However, he couldn’t get away from the trap either. Knowing he could starve to death if he didn’t make his way out on time, since it is quite a remote area and it could take days or weeks in order for someone to find him trapped.

What would you do?

His choice is to deliberately break his trapped arm with a not very sharp army knife and make his way back in order to save himself.

This is a story keeps on my mind days in and out. Afterward, seeing him attend the night show with the confidence where we could hardly find in most people. Eventually, he becomes celebrity, not even keeps on climbing but also writing books, doing commercial and so on. I wonder if he could predict all these back there.

It could be a hard decision to make but keeps on wondering why get trapped in the first place could do not much help at the moment and obviously wouldn’t lead to any future at all.

He wouldn’t think much about why over and over again. That was then and this is now.

What a past could possibly offer is just a lesson; the future still need you to shape.

It is not wise at all to think about my lost arm; like where it is, how it is.

Everyday is a brand new day.

2007-02-14T22:29:00.000+08:00

There are times that I wish the next day will never come.
There are times that I wish the night wouldn’t be that long.
There are times I feel so reluctant to plan for another day.
There are times I feel so excited about the next day.
(even though it is getting rare this day)

In the end, it is just a single day out of our limited days in life.
Why don’t I treasure it like there won’t be another?
Each day is a pave for tomorrow.
Be positive. Plan it well and live it well.

Why I keep running???

2007-02-13T23:11:00.000+08:00

There are countless times I wanted to stop in the middle of the road when the stress and plain are so huge to deal with and of course I still give in from time to time.
There are countless times I doubt myself why I am doing this and of course I still in doubt from time to time.
There are countless times I think it is stupid enough to do it any more and of course we all agree it is not the coolest thing in town.

I believe it is the simplicity attracts me.

It is like the kind of extended challenge where we have everyday.
Although I might not know how the next ride would be but the best part is I do know exactly where will be the finish line.

I do hope that more and more could find their ways to break away from this cold reality.
And find their strength required for another day.

What would you do then?

It's all over now.

2007-02-05T21:33:00.000+08:00

i thought it would be the hardest day ever but like i said before i am just a human. i still get tired, i still get hungry; it just a day with 24 hours like any other.

it may not sound as normal as it should but in the end it just a day with lot of memories and lot of regrets, that's all.

recently, it;s been too much backward looking already. it is about time to move ahead.

nothing stays forever. thing just slip off from your fingers without any pre-warning.

get yourself in the driving seat for a better tomorrow my friend.

Leave it & let it go.

2007-01-22T22:00:00.000+08:00

i am only human, i could make mistakes and i will probably make some more mistakes in the future.
realizing my mistakes is the first thing to stop the same mistake from happening again.

human do change from time to time.
i said several things, make several promises under several situation.
understanding this is the way it is and start ending the pointless struggle.

don't make it harder than it should.

10 ways to lead a better life

2007-01-22T21:49:00.000+08:00

10. be good to yourself since good times in life is so few these days
9. everyday makes it the best day you could possible be since it could be your last
8. keep your pace or people just pass you right away; forget about someone will stop by and say “how do you do?”, wake up to the reality and get yourself together or you will straight to bottom
7. make yourself heard, make it the best out of you and show them they were wrong, generosity takes a very small part in history
6. laying back is either for millionaire or loser, since you are not the first type, don’t group yourself to the latter one
5. you are not in the jazz business, nothing will be rewarded out of ad hoc. Plan it or lose it.
4. stack up your barging power or you will be cooked someday sooner or later
3. be focused and never lose sight of the big picture
2. keep watching the current situation and deal with it before it becomes fatal
1. it is your life not others

what i am doing here?

2007-01-20T11:26:00.000+08:00

Self help exercise

Take a pen and a paper, drop down the following:
10 reasons why are you doing here
10 reasons why shouldn’t’ be any more
10 things/person you wanted to spend time with
10 reasons why you didn’t
10 reasons why you would still around tomorrow

…no reason to drop anymore.

@#$%&*!...

2007-01-15T07:40:00.000+08:00

lift it up!
hold it up!
keep it up!

oh! fuck it up!

it hurts...

2007-01-12T07:35:00.000+08:00

ah! it hurts so much. no idea it would hurt so much.

everthing seems pointless around here.

i wish i could but in the end appearantly, i couldn't lift myself from this "psychological sea sick" - everything from what i observe contradicted to what i believe.

i think i have to adimt is that i am just a human being and a vulnerable one i guess.

Trust

2006-11-05T22:58:00.000+08:00

there is something where you couldn't see, you wouldn't touch but many people's life are virtually relied on this very little thing floating in air - trust.

i didn't relize how powerful of this little word could actually be; until one day. and i wish that day would never happens to others.

acting like a broke down discman tracks repeating over and over again, i realize this very little word actually dominant our lifes. every steps we take, every moves we make, we actually go through a series of "trust - reliability tests" in our head. any part scores below our predetermined trust standard, thing goes straight to the trash bin. the sad thing is recycle still pretty new to this, normally things will stay there for the rest of its day.

What do we need actually

2006-11-03T20:23:00.000+08:00

What it take to have a nice and relaxing day?
Think twice what we are doing everyday.
Is it really necessary?
Or we just didn’t think at all?

Ask yourself what would you miss the most if you are going to leave this world soon.

Family recognizes man with amnesia on TV - Jeffrey Alan Ingram

2006-10-24T14:55:00.000+08:00

How does it feel to forget? How does it feel to be forgotten? There was time we may wanted to forget, there was time we may wanted to be forgotten. But eventually, I believe after all human is a kind of creature which prefer to live together than isolated. One of the conditions of living together is identity; it could be your self image, how others perceive who you are and what you are. Sometimes it could way out of what you might expected but in the end it is still nice to be identified after all. Besides, you still have plenty of time to lead your life on your own terms.

Pizza Hut scooter

2006-10-18T18:21:00.000+08:00

“Everything is possible when there is life. Without life there is nothing seems to be meaningful.” There is no way one could feel love or to be loved, the feeling of being happy, the feeling of attached, the feeling of longed for something and so much more… It could so easily be forgot that how precious of everyday is, how vulnerable of a human life is.

Couple years ago, I saw a man fall off the cliff. It was a horrifying experience and it keeps bothering me from time to time. Until last night, there is a reckless driver who crash his scooter right in front of me. The second I notice there could be something wrong with his driving line, the next second scooter was fallen into pieces and the driver was thrown out. The whole thing could compare to what I can possibly have in a movie but only without the excitement I might get.

Everything happened within seconds. I was wondering what is on the driver’s mind. Within these split of seconds, would he feels so regret that it shouldn’t drove so fast in the first place, would he felt so sorry that it shouldn’t took this order, would he so regrets that it didn’t tell the one he loved for so long, would he felt so sorry that it shouldn’t took this job. There could be lot more important thing goes around his head but at least there is “shit! where hell I am going to land?”.

The whole pizza hut scooter was crushed into pieces, hopefully the driver remain in one piece. Looking alright with minor injury.

There are times people took things for granted. In fact, everyday is a work of miracle already. It could be the very last day indeed.

This scaring message reminds me to live every single day the way I wanted to be. Doing things matter to me, trying to live my with as little regret as possible. Time is scare, use it properly. Be good to yourself, otherwise people will be hurt. Like parents are been through hell already to bring me to this world, there is no point to make it harder than it should.

canoe

2006-09-01T14:14:00.000+08:00

Canoe is so much more than just a narrow boat to me, a means of escape. As I enjoyed being solo where I can be myself, taking my time to sort things out of my tiny head and finding a solution to "what this life is all about?". Besides, it provides a chance to embrace the mother nature and so much more...

Me, my canoe and the nature become one, isn't it great?

But all the above are just imagination; I am not allow to rent a canoe alone yet.

Not giving up and my spirit is high.

Will disappear from this city some day.

What would you do? How would you feel?

2006-08-18T18:35:00.000+08:00

By LAUREN FRAYER, Associated Press Writer
“At least 845 Lebanese were killed in the 34-day war: 743 civilians, 34 soldiers and 68 Hezbollah. Israel says it killed about 530 guerrillas. On the Israeli side, 157 were killed — 118 soldiers and 39 civilians, many from the 3,970 Hezbollah rocket strikes. The figures were compiled by The Associated Press, mostly from government officials on both sides.”

Jill Carroll

2006-08-18T11:14:00.000+08:00

Always envy to be a reporter; devoted to things matters to the world. Things reflect who we really are. Things showing how good one could be. But most of time turns out to be how ugly we really are.

Only a handful of people can walk and forth from the gate of devil. Only she could tell whether it was a life changing experience or not?

Just hope had she could use her influence in the right way and make the world a better place.

my little life savers

2006-08-17T08:59:00.000+08:00

iPod and alcohal are the least two things i will forget on the exile island.
these two little things help me through the hardest days.

"thick iPod feels just right for my stomach" - ltj

wait a minute, does it actually helps me through or drown me in the past?

how much i miss the blue sky and the sun....

2006-08-16T22:29:00.000+08:00

it is a kind of sad to work inside an office. it seems the biggest reward of the day; is hoping the sun still there when you're leaving.

one the days...

let it go...

2006-08-16T13:48:00.000+08:00

i remember my first driving lesson, i used my every single inch of muscle to squeeze onto the steering wheel as if i let it go, the car would fall apart. looking back, it is silly and i am sure it was funny to my very first teacher.

sometime, i try my best to hold on to things matters to me. but life is much more complicated than a machine; am i just holding onto the steering instead? no idea and i would probably never know.

trying to look things from a distance or with another perspective helps a bit actually.

job well done & keep it up...